Today is a hard day for us. One month ago today we heard the worst news we have ever heard. We lost our bundle of joy. Mommy was almost 17 weeks and baby had stopped growing at 14 weeks. We are staying strong in our faith. We know that is a reason why this happened, even know we don't understant it. God waited for Peter to be home from tech school and for it to happen before we moved. Not only that the same day 2 years ago we brought our son Malachi home from the hospital. So many things to be greatful for in this hard time. We are also blessed with amazing friends! The same day we found out our friends Dusty and Jeremy came over to give Peter and I a blessing. It was God working threw them. It gave us the strength and peace to get threw the procedure. All we can do is praise God and thank him for everything he has given us. The weekend after this happened we moved to Wyoming. Again God blessed us with our friend Megan. She got back to Seattle from Hawaii with her mom the night before we started our move. She drove Malachi and I all the way to Montana(where she lives). So I could rest the first 2 days of the drive, since I wasn't 100% yet.
We have been doing okay but from time to time we have this saddness that over come us. The hardest part for Peter is that he planned this pregnancy and was so happy to have the baby fit into our new state, new home, and new lives. As for me the hardest part has been the thought of my complications. The pregnancy with Malachi was a rollercoster. The first 4 months I was on bed rest. After that I felt fine, then a month early Malachi came from complications. I had an emergancy C-Section. Now with this pregnancy I had similar problems.
We don't know the cause of the loss but we hope that we can be there for others. We have so many people in our lives who have been threw the same thing. They have reminded us that we can try again and that we are still young. They helped us realize we are not alone and that it was nothing we could have done differently. Its great to have the support and we hope to be there for others some day.
Its ok not to understand why things happen! Just remember to keep faith and know that the man up stairs has a good reason.
I love that you are humble through all of this Nicole. You are turning a tragedy into something you are learning from. Bad things happen to good people and I'm not sure why. I'm happy that you are trying to keep a smile on your face through a difficult time. We love you guys, always and forever!
ReplyDeleteThank You Megan! We are here for you guys! You both have been there for us threw the hard times. We are still having our sad moments but we are so happy we were able to be together threw this and for our son Malachi! We learned a lot about miscarriage and found out that it happens more than we think it does. Also, that with my complications that we are high risk for them. We are go grateful that our first pregnancy was almost full term. Can't image going threw this first. We pray a lot more and give thanks. We planned the pregancy, maybe its wasn't God's plan for us? I dunno, but we put our trust in him.
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